It’s really just crazy because I never thought i’d feel like this about you.. like the only options left are to let this go and i’ve lost all hope in you.  You just pushed me past my limit and the worst part is.. my limit was really far.  I’ve put up with so much of your shit and would have done anything for you, but now I’m just done.  Every time I think about all the things you said to me, when you’d look me in the eyes and I could feel the love without you even saying anything, I think about how you wanted to hurt me and how you succeeded.  Everything has been tainted, which isn’t fair.  I held every memory and thought about you very dear to my heart and it’s just ruined.. I hate it so much.  I don’t want to remember you like this.  I love you, don’t get me wrong.  I still love you more than anything.. but now it’s our memories I think about and a wave of nostalgia hits me and I find myself in tears when I think about everything we could have had.  I don’t think about our hopeful future and how great it would be to be with you again because honestly.. I don’t see it for us anymore. I think that’s how I know this is the end.